The Scoop..

Someone needs to slap me.  I cannot seem to get out of my "don't know what to write about" funk.  And I hate it because I do enjoy blogging.  And here is the really sad part, I don't even have any pictures to share.    I've slacked THAT much.

So you might be wondering how I am entertaining myself... well the new boy, duh!

I know I still owe you all a post.. so I think today will be it.   No, I won't name his name.  And no I won't tell you anything very clear about who he is (if you live near me and don't know who it is already) simply because this is a SLOW relationship and we aren't a public item, yet. 

You girls understand.  When you live in a small town, the word gets out and before you know it your whole story is completely untrue.  So we are just keeping it on the DL until we see if there is anything worth giving them something to talk about!

But I do believe there is...

So, I know if we were having this convo face to face then you would ask how we met.  Well, facebook.  I know that's not the safest/coolest way to meet someone.  But we did it.  And boy am I glad I accepted that friend request. 

Now, let me say he wasn't a TOTAL stranger sending me a friend request and I just took the bait.  No, Kayla don't work like that.  I don't add people I don't know, sorry about it.   Actually when I looked at the name I knew it was familiar.  I remembered him from elementary school age.  No, we didn't go to the same school but when you live in Small Town USA, you kind of know the other schools just as well as your own.  Right, ladies? 

ANYWAY... I accepted his request and didn't think much of it.  I sent him a message asking him if we had met.  Yes, Kayla does forget people sometimes, hehe.  And he wrote back and said that he didn't think so, but that I looked familiar.  This was like two days before I went on the last vacay to Gatlinburg so I had that on my mind and not some random guy.  So, fast forward to during my vacation.  For those of you who are my friends on FB then you saw where I was checking in at various places and then posting about being sick.  Well this guy was "liking" all my check in's and once the status about being sick was made, he was kind enough to send me a message on facebook asking me if I was feeling any better. 

A complete stranger just asked me if I was better.  Say whaat?

I told Tammy about it and her words were "Then talk to him girl.  You never know." 

Still at this point I wasn't thinking much of it.  I was still hurt/angry/pissed at the whole Anthony situation and how it had all played itself out.  And being with some other guy was one of the last things I wanted to imagine. 

But I took her advice, and I wrote back. 

That was Sept. 12th and we haven't went a day without speaking yet.  Wow, a month ago today. 

Anyway, the conversation just flowed.  I mean super easy.  It felt like I had known him my whole life and he had just been hidden for awhile.  I didn't say anything to anyone about it because I didn't want anyone to think I was crazy for saying something like that... about a complete stranger, who keep in mind.. I have never met. 

The conversation continued through FB messages and I would find myself staring at my phone just waiting on the next one to pop up.  And yes, I even thought I was crazy myself.  That soon led into texting and calling, like some super crazy amounts of texting.    

I knew our meeting each other was going to be the turning point for me.  So we started talking about how we thought it was time to.  We were two weeks into "knowing" each other and it was just time to do it and see if what we were both feeling was a good thing, was truly still a good thing post-meet up.   

So, we made plans for him to come to my house.  That way we weren't in the public.  And we could really talk and find out more about each other rather than just sit there and watch a movie, etc.  The two days leading up to us meeting I KNEW he was nervous.  I could hear it in his voice.  I, on the other hand, was fine.  I had a gut feeling that this guy was put in my life right then for some reason.   So the day rolls around and I remember telling my co-worker that day that I HAD to find something to do to occupy my time until he got there or then I'd become a nervous wreck too.  So I ended up going to see Jenna, duh.  :)

Well I ended up not making it home until like 30 minutes before he was going to be there.  And I still had to shower/feed the dogs/clean the house up some/any other random thing that needed to be done.   I was in complete panic mode. 

And yes, I got it all done.  For the most part anyway...

I will admit, I was very nervous about that first two minutes of meeting him in person.  I had done almost put him on a pedastal in my mind and this had the possibilty of changing it all. 

But it was completely fine.  He brought me roses and gave me the sweetest hug within seconds of meeting me.  I was calmed.  His heart was beating so fast.  I could feel it when he hugged me and you girls know what I'm talking about when I say that knowing that he was that nervous just made my heart smile. 

It was so cute. 

So we went inside and talked and got to know each other a little more.  And when he left I actually missed him already.  So I knew it was right that I meet him. 

We have since seen each other three times and every single time I feel more and more comfortable with him.  Like I said, I feel like I've known him my whole life.  I don't have to hide any part of me or feel like I should or shouldn't say certain things so I don't offend him.   I say and do what I want and he respects that.  The communication line is very open and we even have had our first "issue" and dealt with it like adults.  I won't get into what it was over, because that's part of the reason this whole relationship is still very private.  But just know that we are better off now FOR having it. 

Sometimes it takes someone saying something blunt to really open another level of communication.  And we did it.

I'm more excited than I've been in years.  I don't feel in any way that he wants me to be someone I'm not.  He appreciates my flaws as much as my good attributes.  We balance each other out.  He knows when I'm joking and isn't afraid to dish one right back at me.  He is a family guy and loves that my family is my #1 priority. 

He is basically me, and I can easily see this man grow into my best friend. 

He is the guy that God placed in my life right now for reasons I'm still waiting to see.  We have both been down a hurtful road and without going into the details, it is clear that God chose now for us to meet.  Why else would two people the same age from the same Small Town, USA never meet until we both been down a very similar road?  

I believe in God's timing.  And I know He had a hand in this one.

So there you go ladies and gents.  That's my story, for now. 

I'm more me than I've been in 5 years.. and it feels GOOD to be back!